I have, unfortunately, taken about 2 years off from smoking. Here’s my story – looking for intelligent input please!
I started smoking at the age of 19 and loved it! I quickly became a ‘stoner,’ smoking anywhere and everywhere I could, as much as I could, as often as I could. Fun. Times. Never had an issue with anything, MJ was my cure-all. Sick? Smoke. Grumpy? Smoke. Nervous? Smoke. Unmotivated to work my work at home job? Smoke. Sore? Smoke.
Seriously, it fixed everything. It was to the point where I was going through about an oz and a half a week, and it was great! Things felt better, I was less grumpy/chy with friends & family, I worked more, so I made more money even though I was spending more because of my new ‘ha.’ Things just felt better.
A couple years went by with no issue, but then one day I go to my cousin’s house and we smoke. I start feeling REALLY dissociative, to the point where everything looked like it was flat, made of cardbaord? It’s hard to describe. I freaked out, felt numb, heart racing, blah blah blah – typical panic attack.
Another couple months of normalcy go by. Then I get into a spin out. No one was hurt, but it shook me up REAL bad. So I went home and put some kief in the bong – had another panic attack. Ever since that day, ANYtime I smoke, I get a panic attack. Every. Time. I tried chronic, regs, kief, different strains, you name it. Still got panic attacks.
So I quit smoking – one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make. I started gaining weight, which I thought was odd seeing as I wasn’t munching as much. I went to a doctor and found out that I have Hashimotos, a thyroid disorder. I’ve been medicated for that, but the panic attacks persisted so I went to a therapist who prescribed me Wellbutrin, Lamictal, and Xanax (as needed – I get .25 mg and I break them in 1/2 or 1/4).
But still I have these panic attacks! I am so much more irritable and unmotivated now that I don’t smoke. I am a medical marijuana patient because I have scoliosis and chronic pain from judo training and I’m not allowed to take pain relievers because of a stomach issue (which, btw, marijuana also helped).
So yeah, TL;DR – long time smoker, not a newbie, medicated for anxiety, but MJ is still giving me panic attacks. Suggestions? Please?